happy 7 months

baby brian,

happy 7 months, little love!  no surprise here, but you are still growing, growing!  you are at such a fun age.  you are so interactive, not quite mobile yet (other than rolling many times over), and your personality is getting bigger by the day.  you love music, being carried around, playing in the saucer and jumperoo, walks outside, and bath time.  you get so very distracted when eating or getting your diaper changed.  you can’t quite sit up yet, so mommy feeds you in the bumbo – you spent too much time trying to sit up in the bouncy seat, but the bumbo has challenges too.  you try to grab the buckles to put in your mouth, you try to reach down to touch the table, you try to grab the food and spoon if mommy sets it down, you try to put your bib and hands in your mouth, the list goes on.  even during bottle feedings, you have a newfound interest in touching mommy’s hair and face.  when you reach your little hand up, i give it a loud kiss and you giggle away.  i wouldn’t trade those moments for the world!  during diaper changes, you are so intrigued by the containers of lotion and cream in the little cubbies on either side of your changing pad.  you always try to turn and grab them, sometimes you’re successful.  you’re definitely strong enough that it’s hard to keep you facing forward so mommy can finish the diaper change.  back to sitting up, we’re working on it!  you’re definitely strong enough, you just don’t understand that if you throw yourself back you will fall.  earlier today, you did sit up by yourself for 5 seconds… you have to start somewhere.

you are less interested in eating than you have been in the past.  i’m fairly sure that part of it is that you are ready to move to a 4 hour schedule instead of eating every 3 hours.  however, since you’ve been at daycare, it’s hard for mommy to know what you really need.  maybe over thanksgiving break in a few weeks i can work on adjusting things.  you eat all sorts of veggies and fruits now.  i mix them with rice to make them a bit thicker, which you do better with.  you also eat baby yogurt.  the first time you tried it, you had a funny look on your face, but then you ate it like a champ!  it is quite possibly the messiest food to feed you though!  anyway, for now you get three small meals of solids and 5 six ounce bottles a day.

you still sleep pretty well at night, although i think you had your first bad dream a few nights ago… you started crying pretty hard at 11:30 pm.  because you had been sick with ear infections, mommy thought it was prudent to check on you, turns out you were sound asleep and felt cool as a cucumber with no fever.  i picked you up to calm you down and you nestled into my shoulder and fell right back asleep (being your mom is seriously the best).  you take 3 good naps a day at home, but only 2 small ones at daycare.  i think daycare is exhausting for all of us, but daddy and i hope to make some changes soon.

while i’m on the subject of daycare, it pains me to write that your “teachers” are not taking care of you like mommy would.  aside from the poor nap routine (i get it, daycare is just different than home), your onesies are often completely soaked with drool despite my efforts to take you every morning with a bib on.  your teachers also told me that you are biting other children. but you’re not mobile yet, so they must be putting other babies on top of you.  plus, everything goes in your mouth – you’re too little to know that another human is not fair game like a toy.  your teachers also seem to not be able to feed you solids at the right mealtime, so you actually had no solids for dinner the other night.  my favorite is probably this: your teachers told me that you are having a hard time playing independently and that you’re too fussy.  i responded that you’re probably fussy from the lack of good naps… doesn’t take a rocket scientist to figure that out.  there is another little boy close to your age in your class, henry.  your teachers are always comparing you to him and suggesting your schedule should be like his.  but you are not henry!  most days, you are crying when i come to pick you up.  monday this week was the icing on the cake… a different teacher was in the classroom when i came to get you.  i heard you wailing as i came down the hall, signed you out, and covered my shoes.  i walked in the room to see that you had slipped from this big boppy that they often use to help you sit up.  you also had no toys around you, and you were sitting in a huge poppy diaper.  meanwhile, the daycare worker just sat on a rocking chair and rocked another baby who was not eating or upset, as she stared into space.  the daycare has a policy to check IDs if they are not familiar with who is picking up the child, and this lady just completely ignored us.  i started to put you in your carseat outside the classroom, but you spit up.  i went back in to get a wipe and the teacher said “what’s the baby’s name?”  clearly she did not know us and should’ve checked my ID to make sure i was actually your mommy.  another parent was picking up his son when all of this was happening.  we left the classroom together and i asked him if you had been crying like that the whole time he was in the room, and he said yes.  it’s hard to hand you over to someone for 10 hours a day and trust that they are doing the best thing for you.  we tried it for a month, it did not work, so your “teachers” will not be your teachers for much longer.

we’ve had lots of doctor visits since last month.  your routine well child checkup – you are a tall one (seems like your chubbiness goes away pretty quickly as you gain more length).  another quick visit to get your first flu shot.  two sick visits, one because you scratched your eye, and one for double ear infections (october 23rd) that came from a nasty daycare cold.  in fact, the cold was so nasty that mommy and daddy got it too and mommy ended up with a sinus infection.  we also had two appointments with the cranial banding specialist.  it’s a good thing we did because even though the neurologist tried to convince us that your plagiocephaly is mild, according to the actual measurements, its technically severe on the asymmetry measurement and the cranial band is covered by insurance.  you have been measured at this point and we’re waiting for your helmet to arrive!  the plain band is pretty ugly, so we plan to get yours painted… maybe for the carolina panthers (they are actually having a good season this year, and you do like to watch football with daddy).  reflux is still an issue, but daddy and mommy pray everyday that it parts ways with you soon.

we did do some fun things this past month.  we had your 6 month photos taken.  they turned out so great… probably because you are so handsome!  and we also dressed you up like a bear for our church’s “trunk or treat” the day before halloween and for trick or treating on actual halloween.  you didn’t love getting in the costume, but you didn’t mind it once it was on.  and boy were you the cutest bear i’ve ever seen!

we have lots of other prayers for you – for your growth and development, for your health and safety, for you to have wisdom, for you to love and serve the Lord.

i love you so much, baby buddy.  you are my favorite and i’m so grateful God chose me to be your mama.




happy 6 months

baby brian,

how am i already writing this?  how are you 6 months old?  i want to freeze time and keep you my little baby for a little while longer.  every night before bed, i look at pictures of you from the day and sometimes go all the way back to your newborn photos… i can’t believe how much you’ve changed from just a few months ago.  but growing up is good.  and growing up is what you are doing!  this month you found your feet (september 14th).  you can even get them to your mouth, because everything must go to your mouth!  two more teeth also came in – the upper and lower right lateral incisors (september 22nd).  i think you really want to crawl, but you just can’t figure it out yet.  instead, you put your arms out to the side and flail and kick… daddy calls this your supermans!  it’s funny because when you are wiggling around in your crib, you know to tuck your legs up under your butt, you just don’t know that this is necessary to crawl too.  physically, you are a bit chunkier at about 17 pounds and your hair is starting to come in more.  as much as i hoped you would have beautiful dark hair, it seems to be on the lighter side of brown (although still beautiful).  you look more like mommy and my side of the the family everyday. 

you are still drinking 6 oz in each bottle, 5 times a day.  we also feed you veggies first thing in the morning and at your next to last feeding for “dinner.”  so far you’ve had carrots, squash, sweet potatoes, green beans, and peas.  i don’t really think you have a favorite, you did make some funny faces when you first tried carrots.  we used to give you rice cereal, but it was constipating you even with prune juice mixed in, so your doctor told me to just stick with fruits and veggies.  after one more day of peas, we will work our way through the fruits.  your reflux seems to be worse than ever, so i’d rather not stuff you full of solids anyway.

you still love baths – you kick and splash the whole time you’re in your little tub! and you love tummy time, but it aggravates your reflux.  you also like to be outside.

you are sleeping 11 hours at night still, but we will see if daycare changes that for us.  you have been napping 3 times a day, but daycare will probably change that for us too… you only slept for 50 minutes total during your first full day.  even before daycare, you could use that fourth nap some nights, but you won’t take it anymore… no matter how tired you are.  instead, you just fuss at mommy and daddy.  the evenings are rough, but i remind myself that there will come a time when you won’t want us to hold you and entertain you, and i will miss it.  so even if you are a bit fussy, i’ll take it!

going back to daycare, you have been two full day now.  mommy took you for two half days a couple of weeks ago, and that was enough to give you your first cold.  call me soft, i kept you home the next week so you could recover and be well for your dedication at church (september 27th).  the following week we visited pop pop and gigi for a couple of days, so i kept you home too.  you did great at pop pop and gigi’s house.  you had your first nights away from home (september 29th and 30th) and night without us (september 30th).  pop pop and gigi have a little dog, which you didn’t seem to mind either.

your dedication was a beautiful and special event.  so many of our family and friends were there to watch mommy and daddy commit to raise you in a Christian home.  our church’s children minister read the verse we chose for you.  it is such a special verse, it carried me through waiting for you to be in mommy’s belly and waiting for you to arrive in this world.  this verse reminds me that even on the scariest and worst of days, God is the mightiest.  i pray that one day you will know this truth too and surrender your life to Him, because as much as i wish this won’t be true for you, there will be hard days.  here is the verse: ah, Lord God! behold, You have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and outstretched arm. there is nothing too hard for You. {Jeremiah 32:17}

as far as doctor visits go, we had two follow ups for your misshapen head.  after the first visit, the doctor suggested we wait one more month to see if it evens, but it hasn’t really.  i thought today they would recommend a helmet, but the doctor said no!  your poor little ears are even crooked… mommy and daddy don’t want you to be self conscious about that, so we may end up self referring anyway.  i also took you to the doctor for your spitting up. it is kind of out of control.  it’s definitely worse with formula and solids, but they are harder to digest.  now you’re more mobile, and it seems as though you are just jiggling the contents of your little belly too much.  the doctor said there’s not much we can do besides get more burp cloths.  we’re praying things improve soon!

i pray for you every day, little love.  i pray that God is preparing your heart to accept Him.  i pray for your health and safety.  i pray for the resources and wisdom to raise you.  i pray for your head and reflux and dimple.  i pray that you will get adjusted to daycare and eventually nap.  

i love you millions and millions!


happy 1 month

baby brian,

today you are one month old.  i can’t believe it, time is certainly flying.  you already look so different to me – you are growing and changing so fast.  you are a chubby little guy – already 9 lb at 3 weeks old.  i can’t wait to see how big you are at your one month check up tomorrow.  so many of our family and friends say you look like daddy, but daddy says you look like me {only because your skin is a little on the pale side}.  i see both of us in you, which is the way it should be!

your daddy and i have already seen you roll over from tummy to back (april 25th), and it looks like you will be rolling from back to tummy soon!  i’ve even seen you scoot forward during tummy time (may 5th), which you’re not so fond of by the way {mommy makes you do tummy time anyway because it will help you build strong muscles}.  during your first month i’ve also seen a single tear from your right eye (april 30th), and it almost made me cry {guess i’ll have to get over that as many more tears are surely on the way}.  you share little smiles almost everyday – usually just as you look around or sometimes after you sneeze.  mommy may have gotten a smile meant for her this morning, but it’s hard to tell.

you are a hungry little fella, you eat 4 oz of milk almost every feeding.  mommy is very type a and loves to have a schedule, so i try to feed you every 3 hours beginning at 7 am.  after your 10 pm feeding though, daddy and i let you sleep as long as you can.  you usually make it until 2:30 am.  the past two days you’ve whimpered a little bit starting around 6 am, but you’ve been able to snooze in your crib until about 7 am {speaking of crib, we’ve had you in your room for a couple of weeks now.  it was hard for me only because it is recommended that you sleep in our room, but we all seem to sleep better with you in your room.  we do have a really good monitor, and sometimes i just walk down the hall and watch you sleep}.  occasionally you through me a curve ball and decide you want to eat before the next shift – i think it’s the 3-4 week growth spurt.  the 7 pm feeding is hard.  mommy is trying to finish a 6:30 pm pump, get dinner ready for me and daddy, and make sure we eat before we start your routine.  it can be stressful with you crying in the background, but the evening is your fussy time.  after your 7 pm bottle comes bath time {you used to cry during sponge baths, but you love immersion baths now that your belly button is totally healed}, a book or two, and then prayers – all with mommy and daddy.

you used to be good at napping in your car seat during the day if mommy needed to take you somewhere or if we went on a walk, but the past week or so haven’t been so successful with car seat naps.  i love to take walks with you {not to mention, pushing that stroller is great exercise}, so i hope you go back to snoozing just about anywhere soon.

medically, in your first month of life, you were circumcised (april 8th) and you had a frenulectomy (april 20th).  you also had several impromptu visits with the pediatrician.  two visits for your umbilical cord stump/belly button not drying up quick enough and one for reflux.  you’re on zantac now for the reflux.  now that we’ve figured out how to give it to you {daddy discovered it was best to sneak it in while you are drinking your bottle}, you seem to cough and arch your back less during feedings.  we also had a visit with the urologist because your circumcision didn’t heal quite right.

my love for you grows deeper every day.  i love to hold you and gaze into your blue eyes as i try to ingrain in my memory what 1 month old brian looks like.  you are so precious to me and your daddy, but also to our Heavenly Father.  our prayers for you are that you develop normally {sacral dimple doesn’t amount to any significance}, that you are healthy and happy, and that your reflux improves.  as you grow up, we pray that you desire to follow Christ and that mommy and daddy do a good job introducing you to and teaching you about Him.  we also pray that you are strong, smart, courageous, a leader, but also compassionate and caring.

i love you baby buddy/bubby/bitty/bid,


3rd trimester – week 30

week 30 has been a bit rough, physically.  but every time i start to complain, i remind myself how thankful i am for bitty boy and that we’ve made it this far.

  • weight gain: 3 lbs from week 28, that’s a total of 4 so far this trimester {i knew i couldn’t sneak by}.
  • food aversions: nothing noteworthy.
  • food cravings: also, nothing noteworthy {ok, maybe salt still.  i did inhale some kettle chips on saturday}.
  • symptoms: bleeding gums when brushing teeth/flossing, so sleepy, rib pain, acne, tummy skin tightness/pain, i get short of breath easily, so much indigestion/reflux.
  • emotions: still get quite angry over little things.  still don’t like that.  i’m striving for improvement this week.
  • baby bump: according to the OB, measuring right at 30 weeks.
  • movement: lots of presses and wiggles, particularly on the left side.  my OB thinks his head is on the left, but feels like his legs are too.  it will be interesting to see what position he’s in at our next ultrasound {this coming wednesday}.  so many hiccups.
  • stretch marks: not yet.

my belly skin was so tight/my tummy was so sore on friday that i decided to call the OB.  i knew it couldn’t be contractions because the pain didn’t come and go.  instead, it was constant.  all day long.  i’ve also experienced tightening after exercising, but that pain is always much lower and eventually stops with rest.  they brought me in and did the full work up just in case {external exam, internal exam, fetal fibronectin test, movement/contraction monitoring}, but thankfully everything looked normal.  i love how my OB’s office never makes me feel crazy for stuff like this.  they really are awesome.

i’m looking forward to our ultrasound this wednesday.  hopefully bitty boy is still on track!