happy 6 months

baby brian,

how am i already writing this?  how are you 6 months old?  i want to freeze time and keep you my little baby for a little while longer.  every night before bed, i look at pictures of you from the day and sometimes go all the way back to your newborn photos… i can’t believe how much you’ve changed from just a few months ago.  but growing up is good.  and growing up is what you are doing!  this month you found your feet (september 14th).  you can even get them to your mouth, because everything must go to your mouth!  two more teeth also came in – the upper and lower right lateral incisors (september 22nd).  i think you really want to crawl, but you just can’t figure it out yet.  instead, you put your arms out to the side and flail and kick… daddy calls this your supermans!  it’s funny because when you are wiggling around in your crib, you know to tuck your legs up under your butt, you just don’t know that this is necessary to crawl too.  physically, you are a bit chunkier at about 17 pounds and your hair is starting to come in more.  as much as i hoped you would have beautiful dark hair, it seems to be on the lighter side of brown (although still beautiful).  you look more like mommy and my side of the the family everyday. 

you are still drinking 6 oz in each bottle, 5 times a day.  we also feed you veggies first thing in the morning and at your next to last feeding for “dinner.”  so far you’ve had carrots, squash, sweet potatoes, green beans, and peas.  i don’t really think you have a favorite, you did make some funny faces when you first tried carrots.  we used to give you rice cereal, but it was constipating you even with prune juice mixed in, so your doctor told me to just stick with fruits and veggies.  after one more day of peas, we will work our way through the fruits.  your reflux seems to be worse than ever, so i’d rather not stuff you full of solids anyway.

you still love baths – you kick and splash the whole time you’re in your little tub! and you love tummy time, but it aggravates your reflux.  you also like to be outside.

you are sleeping 11 hours at night still, but we will see if daycare changes that for us.  you have been napping 3 times a day, but daycare will probably change that for us too… you only slept for 50 minutes total during your first full day.  even before daycare, you could use that fourth nap some nights, but you won’t take it anymore… no matter how tired you are.  instead, you just fuss at mommy and daddy.  the evenings are rough, but i remind myself that there will come a time when you won’t want us to hold you and entertain you, and i will miss it.  so even if you are a bit fussy, i’ll take it!

going back to daycare, you have been two full day now.  mommy took you for two half days a couple of weeks ago, and that was enough to give you your first cold.  call me soft, i kept you home the next week so you could recover and be well for your dedication at church (september 27th).  the following week we visited pop pop and gigi for a couple of days, so i kept you home too.  you did great at pop pop and gigi’s house.  you had your first nights away from home (september 29th and 30th) and night without us (september 30th).  pop pop and gigi have a little dog, which you didn’t seem to mind either.

your dedication was a beautiful and special event.  so many of our family and friends were there to watch mommy and daddy commit to raise you in a Christian home.  our church’s children minister read the verse we chose for you.  it is such a special verse, it carried me through waiting for you to be in mommy’s belly and waiting for you to arrive in this world.  this verse reminds me that even on the scariest and worst of days, God is the mightiest.  i pray that one day you will know this truth too and surrender your life to Him, because as much as i wish this won’t be true for you, there will be hard days.  here is the verse: ah, Lord God! behold, You have made the heavens and the earth by Your great power and outstretched arm. there is nothing too hard for You. {Jeremiah 32:17}

as far as doctor visits go, we had two follow ups for your misshapen head.  after the first visit, the doctor suggested we wait one more month to see if it evens, but it hasn’t really.  i thought today they would recommend a helmet, but the doctor said no!  your poor little ears are even crooked… mommy and daddy don’t want you to be self conscious about that, so we may end up self referring anyway.  i also took you to the doctor for your spitting up. it is kind of out of control.  it’s definitely worse with formula and solids, but they are harder to digest.  now you’re more mobile, and it seems as though you are just jiggling the contents of your little belly too much.  the doctor said there’s not much we can do besides get more burp cloths.  we’re praying things improve soon!

i pray for you every day, little love.  i pray that God is preparing your heart to accept Him.  i pray for your health and safety.  i pray for the resources and wisdom to raise you.  i pray for your head and reflux and dimple.  i pray that you will get adjusted to daycare and eventually nap.  

i love you millions and millions!



happy 5 months

baby brian,

today you are 5 months old.  i can’t believe that yet another month has come and gone.  you are my big baby!  every week you grow and change by leaps and bounds, so i can’t call you my little baby any more!  you now have 6 teeth.  the top middle two started to come in on august 13th, the lower left lateral incisor made an appearance on august 30th, and the upper left lateral incisor started to peak through on september 3rd.  you have finally started to bear weight on your legs when we hold you up (august 19th), which is a great sign for hoping the sacral dimple amounts to nothing more than a dimple.  you had your first moment of stranger anxiety when mommy and daddy took you to our sunday school pool party and mrs. donna held you (august 16th).  but honestly, it made mommy feel good – you must know who i am.  your hand-eye coordination is improving every day – you can now get most toys to your mouth, which is helpful for all of these teeth!

we’ve had some issues with feeding over the past month.  mommy’s milk turned into fat free milk and had too much lactose, so you started to get diarrhea and your weight gain slowed.  at first i thought the strange poop was due to all of the teething, but with the help of judy at your pediatrician’s office, we figured out that it was my milk.  after striving for improvement for over a week with little luck, daddy and i decided that it was best to switch to the frozen supply.  things instantly improved, and now we are feeding you half breastmilk half formula {mixed together so you don’t reject my lipase breastmilk}.  we had started rice cereal {although not much was making it to your tummy} during this time (august 10th), but we decided to hold off until we could sort out the digestive issues.  now that your tummy seems to be on the mends, we are back to trying rice cereal.  as of yesterday, you successfully ate one tablespoon of rice cereal before your mid-morning bottle.  it was pretty cute, you let the first few spoonfuls hang out in your mouth, but once you got the idea, you would kick your legs with excitement.  you are still drinking 6-6.25 oz in every bottle.

you are sleeping pretty well at night.  we’ve had a few instances of crying a couple of hours after you’ve gone to bed, probably due to pain from teething.  instead of feeding you every 3 hours, you usually have one longer nap during the day, which gives us 3.5 and 2.5 hours between some feedings.  apparently at this age, it is more important for you to get the sleep you need than it is for you to eat at even intervals.  when you nap well throughout the day, we are able to drop the last nap of the day, but sometimes you need just 20 or 30 minutes of rest because you are too fussy.

we’ve had lots of doctor visits over the past month.  we had your four month appointment and neurologist appointment, which were planned.  the neurologist said your head is shaped like a parallelogram, but he thinks it will correct.  we go back in just a few days to see if things are improving on their own or if you need a helmet.  mommy and daddy have seen some improvement, but it’s not quite round yet.  additionally, you had 3 other appointments.  two for the feeding/tummy issues and teething, and one for teething alone.  after the top two teeth came in, we didn’t think you would have any more teeth for a while, so when you were inconsoable one saturday afternoon, we thought something else was wrong.  turns out it was just more teeth.  while you are teething, you run low fevers in the 99.5-100.6 range.

you officially have a space at daycare, but mommy doesn’t go back to work until october 5th.  i’ll probably start taking you soon for half days so we can both get used to it.  i’m absolutely dreading work and daycare.  it will be a huge adjustment for us both, and mommy will certainly miss spending our days together.  mommy has been praying that the transition isn’t terrible for both of us and that you aren’t constantly sick this winter.

i love you millions, baby buddy.  i can’t help but to kiss your cheeks hundreds of times each day.  you are my favorite baby boy.