part of the recovery from my uterus surgery involved taking estrogen and {later} progesterone for various amounts of time. i decided that having the surgery was a good opportunity for me to allow my natural cycle to return, so i stopped taking birth control shortly before the procedure. a friend told me about a book, taking charge of your fertility, that helps you learn how to track your own cycle through charting {a natural solution to pregnancy prevention or attainment}. i became obsessed {not in a good way} with charting. i often woke up hours before my alarm clock was supposed to go off thinking it was time to take my basal body temperature and afraid i would miss it. eventually my sleep started to deteriorate earlier on in the night too. however, charting helped me figure out that we have a bigger hill to climb post surgery, and ultimately confirmed my RE’s findings {or should i say my RE confirmed my findings}.
as previously mentioned, my cycles did not return to a set schedule post surgery. the first few months, i chalked it up to my body being confused from oral hormones and the absence or birth control. but after three weird cycles and two ugly charts, i finally started to scratch my head. the temperature shifts you are supposed to experience post ovulation were either nonexistent or too short, if i did ovulate it was always post day 22 of my cycle {14 give or take a few is normal}, and my cycles were usually about 35-40 days long. weird. thankfully i already had a RE. i went to him with my concerns and he decided to follow me for a cycle to see if he could pinpoint the problem. he started with a cycle day 3 screening {a fun test consisting of an internal ultrasound while menstruating and blood work for those who are interested}. and he ended with a cycle day 3 screening {the same one to be exact}. apparently my test results coupled with previous findings gave him all he needed to know. the diagnosis? polycystic ovaries, also affectionately known as PCOS.
have you ever googled PCOS? my search results were pretty scary. in addition to posing threats to your fertility, it comes with less than desirable symptoms like obesity, male pattern hair growth, and acne. i was petrified, and i have to admit that i can still get a little shaken every time i notice another “mustache” hair or when my weight fluctuates up a pound or two. almost six months post diagnosis and eleven months sans birth control, i somehow think it’s possible for my body to disown me and completely change overnight. while this is highly unlikely since i still resemble my old {healthy} self, the fear is real. thankfully my RE told me that i’m a PCOS variant, meaning that while i do not have all of the more noticeable external symptoms, my ovaries and hormone levels need a little help.
my RE prescribed metformin to help, which i have been taking for over six months. it has helped some in shortening my cycles, but my luteal phase is still only about 7 days {it should be at least 10}.
what i love about this part of the journey is that a friend reached out shortly before i received the polycystic ovaries diagnosis. she knew that i had surgery, but had no idea that i was still experiencing irregular cycles. we met one evening to swap reproductive issue stories. i shared all about my uterus surgery, and she shared about her struggles with PCOS and getting pregnant. everything she struggled with sounded rough. i remember thinking “thank God that is not me.” ha. turns out, it is me. i have no doubt that God allowed that friendship to blossom into one where we could share details as personal as those about our reproductive health because he knew that one day she would help me. this friend was an amazing resource for me while i navigated the first few weeks of my diagnosis and treatment with metformin.
God places the people that are in your life for a reason. sometimes i feel silly opening up about my {in}fertility issues. but doing so allowed at least two different friends to help me with tracking my cycle and adjusting to new treatment.
that’s all for now. more of the journey to come later.